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2003-02-19 - 11:04 p.m.

Both physically and emotionally, I feel like I have just gone over a very frozen Niagra Falls in a barrel. ow.

Today my mother informed me that we would not be going to New York City during March Break like we had planned. This is because she is "worried about possible terrorist threats, the current Code Orange situation, and the fact that the American people have been told to duct tape their doors in case of terrorism."

I kind of saw it coming the second that Code Orange was announced, but I wanted to cling to some shred of hope that I might still be able to go, so I avoided the topic.

I'm far too irritated and exhausted to voice my response to this news. This is The Way It Is.

Today was Opening Night of Guys and Dolls...which explains the exhaustedness. The show was great. It all pulled together in the end, and I think we're looking at a good run. And after the show, I was smiling and bouncing and clapping. A nice little mask underneath my Mission Band bonnet. I tried to feel it. I tried to get into it. But...I just wasn't. I was just so...tired. Usually acting leaves me energized, but not tonight. Tonight I couldn't think of anything except the utter stupidity of some things.

I'm not trying to sulk. I'm not sulking. I hate sulking! I'm trying to go through the motions, not let anyone else see. Not make a scene. I don't want to make any more scenes.

gah, I have too much to say, but I'm falling over from exhaustion. tomorrow.

oh. by the way. if anoyone happens to be in the area tomorrow night, friday night, or saturday night, come see the play! me in a missionary uniform. and a lot of cute girls in farmer costumes. yeah.

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