enlightenment
2003-05-15 - 8:23 p.m.

I just got back from the doctor.

As Kurt Vonnegut said in his book "Timequake"..."You were sick, but now you're well again. there's work to do."

How very true. because...i *was* ill, not just physically...spiritually and behaviorally too. But no longer. I have been saved.

During the long wait to be administered a hefty dose of horse-sized pills, I had a very enlightening conversation with my mother. she expressed to me her extreme displeasure over some of my actions as of late. She told me that she was moving the computer from my bedroom to a more public area of the house so she can better monitor what i do on it. Ever since I became a fruhead, my behaviors have grown gradually more and more upsetting to her...now, not only am i disrespectful and controversial, i am also gay and pagan! *shock*

she feels upset with herself that she did not take steps earlier to stop the negative influences i have been recieving. And suddenly...epiphany! change! redemption! I HAVE BEEN SAVED, MY FRIENDS!!!

of course...now i must be selective when choosing my friends. I have to have friends my OWN AGE! I have to have friends who are growing and experiencing life at the same rate as me, therefore friends my own age. Anyone older than me, I may respect as a person...but it is UNHEALTHY for me to befriend them.

I must incorporate more of my mother's beliefs into mine, so we do not drift apart, so says my mother. and so I shall, i shall. She was concerned about my losing faith in Jesus. well, I've found Jesus now. I once was lost, but now am found. FOUND!!!

hrm, i really should burn some books. ah yes, a good old fashioned book burning session. Everything by Silver RavenWolf...ack, how could I have ever let that OLDER THAN ME writer lead me so astray? Ooh, and the Critique of Pure Reason goes in next...ah, watch the flames eat up all that nonsense that's distracting me from my studies and sticking my head in the clouds. i'm losing touch with reality. PHILOSOPHY IS DANGEROUS!!! SPREAD THE MESSAGE!!!

ooh, while i'm at it, i should really scribble out the "fuck" on my "fuck censorship" button. That's not the kind of message i want to spread to future generations. there, now it just says "censorship". Much much much better. Now i am partaking in POSITIVE ACTIVISM, my friends. my same-age heterosexual Christian friends.

She said it would make her happy if i stopped going to FHDC for a couple of months. stopped associating with old people. stopped associating with gays. "not because they're bad people, just so you can re-assess if you think your life is better once you start associating with people more like yourself." Sorry, i'm not allowed to associate with bad influences.

ooh, and those people. those people who are so insecure in themselves they need to manipulate the minds of untarnished youth and fill them up to the brim with propoganda. whenever you don't like something about my behavior, "it's ____'s propoganda" that causes it. No no no, HEAVEN FORBID I'm responsible for my own behavior. None of this stuff could have come from my own PURE soul. None of this would have happened if I hadn't met the Devil. Because he DOES exist, my friends.

IN THE INTERNET!!!

Like any evil, he can be manipulated to do good. therefore, i am going to use my internet time to associate with people my own age, GOOD influences, and talk about "light, fun" things like movies and sports and celebrities and drool over the backstreet boys and nsync and fill my head with toe-tappable pop and say "u" instead of "you" as in "u r so gay hahahaha" because THIS IS WHAT TEENAGERS DO!!!

ooh, i wanna go read "teen beat" and put up some posters of aaron carter now. Oh, how refreshing to be saved. how refreshing to be enlightened.

i'd say i was out of Plato's cave, but i burned all those books a long time ago. wtf is Plato's Cave? omgwtflol!!! u r so gay!!! what iz ur problem? u still reading this? omg i luv the boys!!! omg!!!

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